One Thing At A Time

 

I know it’s something that is said all of the time, albeit in different ways,

One foot In front of the other

Step by step

Moment by moment

I have heard these things said all the time, and I had always thought I knew exactly what it meant. But when times get really tough my head just seems to go into a tailspin, thinking about all of the different things that need to be done, ways I need to change my life, looking back at the past hurts, missing the ones I love the most. My heart starts racing, my thoughts although plenty feel aimless as the list, the regrets, wishing I could turn back time, they just keeps going.

Ironically a lot of the thoughts also include

 

Moment by moment

One step at a time

One foot in front of the other

 

 

 

I just want to give up, stop

And that’s exactly what I do sometimes

I decide, right – I am just going to do nothing today, just relax, don’t stress about anything.

That’s one good thing I have learnt in the journey, don’t take on too much.

Now that’s great and has been really helpful. But when I have rested enough, my mind starts the chatter again, the list of things I have to do, change, learn.

 

 

I know I can’t keep going like this, the highs (well more like mediums, if there were such a phrase).

 

 

So I am working on changing one thing, when I’m panicking, I need something that’s going to bring me down slowly, not the extreme of doing nothing.

So I write a list, a set of actual instructions I can follow in order to bring me back to place of calm. This way I have something else to focus on

 

 

This may sound silly and obvious but for me, it’s making something conceptual,  sayings I have heard and making it real for myself.

 

 

I know I’m am logical

I know that if I am following instructions my mind doesn’t wander, it quietens down.

 

 

So Instead of thinking,

Step by step

Moment by moment

 

 

Looking at it as a ideal way of being

I am making it more practical, something that will work for me

 

 

IAMCHRISTYNETTE

I NEED TO DO WHAT EVER WORKS FOR ME